I’ve been really down all week. I haven’t missed Sarah and the family this much for a long time and I’ve only been away for a few days. I can’t wait to get back home again tomorrow – this is most unlike me! I’m usually very resilient but this week just seems to have got to me.
On the upside, if there is one, I always feel more creative when I’m down!
Then to make things worse I got a text off my daughter about her Gran’s funeral on Friday:
I don’t know if you want to, but everyone has said that you are welcome
if you want to come
Not that I know any details yet so can’t tell you even if I wanted to
So that set me off feeling even worse than I already did! I would like to go – after all I did know her as my mother-in-law for over 20 years. But on the other hand I didn’t invite my ex to my Dad’s or my Gran’s funeral (not that I think she would have come anyway) and I don’t want my presence to cause any upset. Oh this just gets more complicated every day!